Fadedwords

I’ve decided that dating is overrated and stupid.

Men that I used to date are “in love” with me (two of them, to be precise… one in Denver, one in NY).  Considering they’re both in relationships and there is a laundry list of reasons we can’t (and won’t) be together, I’m not sure how that’s helpful.

Men that I would like to date now decide a week after taking me out and spending all their time on the phone with me, they want to date someone else.

I need to get some cats.

Awhile back I was playing around on Pinterest and I found a tutorial for a T-shirt quilt.  I was immediately enamored with the idea; I have so many t-shirts that all bring back amazing memories of a time or place… but they’re taking up space in drawers and many of them haven’t been worn in forever.  So this t-shirt quilt idea was appealing, minus the fact that I cannot sew.  At all.  Hrm.

Fast forward to last night.  For some reason I was thinking about that t-shirt quilt.  I posted on face*book that if anyone knew how to sew and would be interested in helping me create this, I’d love to hear from them.  I was somewhat surprised when one of the girls I’ve met through barrel racing said that her Mom sews and would be able to help out.  Then a good friend sent me a message and said that if that didn’t work out she would be able to do it!

I’m really somewhat foolishly excited about this.  I went through my drawers last night and cleaned out 40 t-shirts that I haven’t worn in years but are special to me.  I have a couple more long sleeved cotton shirts that fall into the same category.  I would love to have a big quilt made of all of these, and now I have two people who are willing to help me!

Hopefully I’ll have a really fun quilt that reminds me of some amazing times in my life soon enough.

I feel kind of like I’m drowning.  Only there’s no water.

Things I’ve been up to, in no particular order:

• Seeing Skillet again, front row!
• High fiving John Cooper and meeting Jonathan Chu.
• Creating an art journal, kinda’ like this (only imagine someone with close to no artistic ability doing it!)
• Reading… paper books and books on my brand new kindle fire!
• Ignoring the 6 inch tall pile of medical bills on my kitchen table (screw you medical bills!)
• Losing weight (10 pounds down!)
• Going on dates (met a very nice guy and had a great time… still talking with and getting to know him and one other guy, seeing where things lead).
• Pinning things on Pinterest (you can follow me… link on the bottom of the page)!
• Feeling sad at the loss of a teacher in our district, and the impact it had on students I care a great deal about.
• Mourning the end of the Hunger Games series.  Seriously, please go read them.
• Contemplating investing in a good point and shoot camera for times when my big rig isn’t practical or allowed (Dear Winter Jam, I’m less than impressed that I was not allowed to bring my camera in, and yet I saw at least 10 concert goers who had DSLR’s in the venue!)

So far 2012 has been busy, but overall OK.  I’m looking forward to starting the Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred work out program.  I think it will be motivating and challenging.  I’m also looking forward to taking bridal portraits of my friend Natalie, and taking another trip to the aquarium to figure out light and plan for her upcoming wedding.

The new year is once again upon us.  I find myself feeling somewhat down in the dumps regarding my lack of success in achieving any of my goals for last year.

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