Fadedwords

A year and a half ago I was an emotional basketcase. Not only was I facing some major and frightening health problems, but I was also in the midst of losing a relationship that meant more to me than I could put into words. The only bright spots in my life were a new job, and a new friend named Jake. At that time I saw no light at the end of the tunnel; there was no light.

Exactly a year ago today I was sitting in Rochester International Airport, anxiously pacing back and forth and then making myself sit down again. I was nervously awaiting the arrival of my friend… a friend that I had slowly been falling for over the course of nearly a year. I had let go of the pain and loss and emotional baggage I had carried for months, and I was ready to move on.

Today I’m sitting in the apartment of a man I have been dating for almost a year… a man I have no doubt I will marry one day soon. A year ago today we met for the first time. Today we were supposed to go to look at houses with our realtor, but due to some miscommunication we’ve canceled that. The fact that we were going to go and begin this major step in our lives together today, on the anniversary of our first meeting, fills my heart with happiness.

A year and a half ago I saw no bright future. Today I’m blinded by it.

I will be rooting for the Colts tonight… for the simple reason that I don’t really care about either team winning or losing this year. Well, minus considering that the Bears and Green Bay have a long history of rivalry, and I am a die-hard Green Bay fan.

So go Colts!

*given the first play (92 yard punt return for a TD by Hester), I’m fearful that I may be disappointed.