Perpetually
Life is in a perpetual state of change, or so I’m told. Sometimes those changes are good and positive, while at other moments it seems like you’re at the butt end of some cosmic joke.
I’ve seen my life undergo some very positive changes over the past year or so. For example, moving from my former job to this new one was an incredibly positive change. There are some bad days/weeks, but overall I love this new job and my coworkers. It is such an incredible step up.
In other ways I feel like I’ve stalled. I’ve made very few new friends here. Every time I get motivated to start working out again, I get something that prevents it (sick, my back goes out, etc etc etc). The list could go on and on.
I worry a lot about things that I know I shouldn’t be worrying about. Some changes aren’t for the better, and I’ve realized that recently.
There is much to say and no words to say it. Or perhaps I’m just afraid to. Confrontation has never been my strong point.
I have always been good at being cryptic though.
Heather said,
February 20, 2008 @ 10:20 am
I’ve been doing a lot of that lately myself, worrying.
I’m trying to take it one thing at a time. I literally tell myself, “You have 30 minutes to think about “X” and then you have to stop”. It does help, at least I start to think about things one at a time rather than all at once.
Because you are such an open and nice person, you will find friends soon enough.
Mom said,
February 20, 2008 @ 5:59 pm
is all ok? or do I need to worry?
Monica said,
February 20, 2008 @ 7:04 pm
i do agree you have always been good at being cryptic…but i view it as a strong point…because you’re still always able to get the message across
***HUGS*** – miss you tons!!!
Kels said,
February 20, 2008 @ 9:41 pm
I’ve gotta start doing what Heather does…! I worry about things that I have no need to worry about yet… as in, it’s not even applicable to my everyday life, and won’t be for another 6months-a year… lol Maybe this is just something we do as part of our quarter-life crisis stuff??? Cause I’ve noticed I have a lot more that weighs on my mind more often since I turned 25. At any rate, I hope things look up soon! Thanks for the comment… I had to make the decision and not turn back… I’m pretty resolute… so I don’t forsee any problems with it… but it definitely had to be done… I don’t need that drama or negativity (OBVIOUSLY if I’m worrying about things I don’t need to worry about… I definitely don’t need actual things to worry about! lol)
Tink said,
February 21, 2008 @ 8:40 am
Cryptic, check.
I work at a job that is an hour away, driving there in a car that has over 200,000 miles on it and guzzles $400 in gas a month. Stuff doesn’t always work out the way we want. But fortunately, things always change. You probably won’t be in the same spot you are four years from now, or me for that matter. So we can look forward to that and hope that the things we currently love stay the same, and those things we don’t will be the things to change.