Fadedwords

I don’t want to get into a big debate here… but I’m writing about this anyway.  I’ll just preface it by saying that I know 99% of my readers will really want to get into a debate and argue their side.  But I don’t want that, so please resist the temptation.

I started my homebound work with the 1st grade student from my school today.  She is out of school due to a rare form of cancer.  She is going to be 7 in one week.

Now, I fully respect your right to believe in God.  But honestly?  Any God that would allow a child to get cancer isn’t a deity that I’d be interested in getting to know.  And knowing that little kids do get this horrible disease just makes me believe even more strongly that no benevolent deity would allow that to happen.

But that’s the end of my rant for today.  It was a wonderful afternoon, and I feel lucky that I’ve been allowed into this child’s life this way.  On the flip side I’m feeling angry at the cosmos.  With all the real a-holes out there that deserve to be sick and suffering, this sweet kid is the one that ends up sick.  And that’s effed up.

So I wrote awhile back about how Sean and I recorded a CD for my Mom as a birthday gift.  Several people have asked about a link for the My*Space page I created for that… and while I think I posted the link awhile ago, I decided I’d do it again because several more people have asked.

Kate and Sean Sing.

Please keep in mind that it’s rough and not perfect and all that.  It made our Mom happy, and that’s really all that matters.  Enjoy and let me know what you think if you want.

OK, so I have no picture of Merlin to share today.  I’ve taken no new photos of him, and I’m too tired and feel too sick to go through my photo albums on line to pick something out.

Check in next Monday.  I’ll definitely have some great photos then.

When I think about my father and the fact that he has been sober for 25 years, the pride that fills my chest makes me feel as if I could explode.

Dad, you are an inspiration.  I think often of your willpower and your determination in your sobriety, knowing that if you can succeed at that I can succeed at anything.  I am so very proud of you, and love you very much.

I fully expected this would be a gaining week.  I was wrong.  I lost 3 pounds.

This brings my total loss to 17.2 pounds.  I’m 2.8 pounds away from reaching my 20 pound loss.  I’m 6 pounds away from hitting my 10% goal.  I’m 10 pounds from getting to the weight I can ride at.

I’m so proud and so motivated and so excited.

More excitement is that my friend Dana went to the meeting with me today, so it will be good to have a friend working with me.

It’s a great week.  For all kinds of reasons.  I’m feeling fantastic.