Fadedwords

On the bright side I’m having surgery next Tuesday to remove my gallbladder, so I won’t have to worry about pain and illness caused by it after Tuesday.

On the not-so-sunny-side, I’m going to lose close to $400 in pay because I don’t have the sick days to cover what I’ll need to miss.  And that estimate is low, because I’m going on the thought that I’ll only need a day between surgery and returning to work.  The doctor seemed to think that it would take closer to 3-5 days before I’d be ready.

I’m so, so incredibly sick of busting my a$$ to get ahead only to have something else come up that knocks me back down.  People keep saying that it’s going to get better… they’re always saying that about all sorts of things that really aren’t getting better.  “Things will get better”… and I want to know when.  I want to know when I’m going to stop getting sick all the time.  I want to know when I’m going to stop feeling like I’m financially retarded because I can never save anything and I can never do anything for myself beyond paying bills.  Whenever I try to do that, something else comes up that lands me in debt or so sick that I have to miss a bunch of work and I get docked pay.

My district doesn’t let you donate sick days to someone unless they’re a relative.  In case you were wondering.

*sigh*

Anyway.  No more gallbladder sickness.  You’re supposed to focus on the positive right?