Panic
I had a panic attack at 4 o’clock this morning.
I had a dream, and when I woke up I started thinking about everything… how I’m going to afford to live, how I’m going to live in a house by myself, how I’m going to deal with the very real possibility that this isn’t all going to work out… and I sat there in the dark and had a panic attack.
Happy Monday, right?
I just have to keep believing that this is going to get better or easier. It’s only been a week and a half. It can’t always hurt so much or suck so much. It can’t. Right?
Kate said,
September 28, 2009 @ 10:41 am
{{{{{hugs}}}}}
it will get better and it won’t always hurt so much, but that’s hard to imagine right now i’m sure.
hang in there. shoot me an email if you need to talk.
Mom said,
September 28, 2009 @ 3:39 pm
when you have a panic attack, force your soulders down as far as they will go, purse your lips and breathe through your pursed lips. that is supposed to help. yes it will get easier, and won’t always hurt like it does now. It will however take time. We are here at all times to talk, or whatever else you may need. we will not let you go under.
we love and miss you.
mom and dad
Heather said,
September 30, 2009 @ 7:24 am
It will get better.
At some point you will find that the thoughts of the breakup/old life will start to leave the forefront of your mind. That new things will creep in there: new house, moving, job, fun times with friends, etc. There will of course be times where the thoughts come back and just about crush you. It is then that you need to remember all of the good things you have in life.
Because, trust me, you have A LOT of good things in your life