Fadedwords

I’m feeling a bit blue these days.  I’m sure it’s just a funk, but I’ve been in it for awhile.  There are a great many things I’m thankful for and many things that are going well.  I am blessed with amazing friends and family.  Merlin doesn’t have cancer.  I have been given an amazing opportunity working with a great riding trainer.  My new job at the middle school is phenomenal and I love it.  I am so grateful for all of those things.

I just feel like things have been status quo for a very, very long time.  And I need those things to change.  I’ve been doing what I can to be an “agent of change in my life”, but it seems that the things I try aren’t being very effective.

*shrug*

I’m worn out with being broke and working 7 days a week to try and fix it… and never making any real headway.  I’m lonely, and dating sucks.  *sigh* I’m doing my best to not focus on those things, but lately it’s been increasingly difficult.  I don’t like writing about things like this, but I know that keeping them to myself is also weighing me down.

I’m not making any resolutions this year.  The only one I kept from last year was reading… I surpassed that goal.  Not keeping up with everything else has left me feeling disappointed in myself.  So this year?  I’m just hoping for changes in the areas that are causing me sadness.

I hope that everyone has a wonderful New Year.