Fadedwords

I have been incredibly upset with all the drama surrounding Brett Favre, but not for the reason many who know me might assume.  I’ve been upset because I fully believe Favre has behaved like a spoiled 3 year old.  I’ve been upset because he’s tried to turn this on the Packers organization, and I do not believe they are to blame.  Mostly I’ve been upset because his behavior has caused thousands of fans to take it out on Rogers, and I believe they will continue to do so.  Rogers has waited in Favre’s shadow, patiently, for years to get on the field and show what he’s made of.  Now he’s been in the shadow of this ridiculous mess.  People love Favre so much that they turn a blind eye to his spoiled, self-centered behavior.  I understand loving Favre… I think I’ve made that clear.  I’m also observant enough and intelligent enough to look at this situation for what it really is: Brett Favre thinking he’s entitled to special treatment after making a decision he regretted making.  Yes, he’s a brilliant quarterback.  Yes, he’s given so much to the Packers organization.  I do not believe that entitles him to behave the way he’s behaved.

It is with mixed feelings that I take in the news that he has been traded to the Jets.  Part of me is just so thrilled that he’s getting out of the Packers and letting them move forward, which is what he should’ve done all along.  Admittedly, part of me is sad that he has been traded to another team.  I never imagined Brett Favre wearing another team’s jersey.  To be honest, right now it’s not a huge deal for me.  I’m so upset with how he’s behaved the past few months that I’m just glad he’s leaving the team.  I hope that one day I can be excited about watching him play and be glad that he is playing again.

For now, I’m just glad this horrible time is over for my team.

It feels like the things that you don’t want to change are constantly in a state of flux. 

And then the things you want to change most stay painfully the same.

I don’t know that I can do this anymore.

Tomorrow is loading day; the moving truck is supposed to be here between 1 and 5pm (yay for a large window of time) and then I have the rest of the day, and until 2pm Thursday to get it loaded up with all of my belongings. I’d say I have about 30 boxes, a futon, a papazan chair, a coffee table, a 2-drawer plastic dresser, my tredmill, some framed photographs, two bookshelves, two dvd/vhs racks, and several duffle bags. I have 6 feet in length, 8 feet in width, and 9 feet in height to work with in the truck… so hopefully that will be enough space. I also have my guitar, but I may put that in my car… because it’s too expensive and too important to me to risk having it broken. I still have room in my car, of course. I will load the truck with the biggest things, and then whatever doesn’t fit will go in the car. I have to keep in mind, however, that the cat and the cat’s litter box must go in the car with me… so that’s something to keep in mind when loading up. I’m trying to figure out if I want to bring my big TV in the car with me, because I have an appointment Monday to have cable and internet set up.

I’m dreading the process of actually loading the truck. Right now, as I look around, it seems as if there is just so much stuff. I know that it’s really not that much in the grand scheme of things… but having 80% of it piled into my living room makes it seem much more overwhelming. Two of my good friends on campus have generously offered their time and their “brute strength” to help me load up. Hopefully between the three of us we will get it done in a relatively short period of time. After the truck is loaded I will call the company and they will come back and get it. Hopefully it will arrive in North Carolina early in the week so I can get my stuff unloaded and begin organizing my house.

My time here is winding to a close, and I would be lying if I said I wasn’t sad. I’ve made some very good friends here, and I’ve enjoyed my time at Alfred for the most part. Leaving New York is a strange feeling; I’ve spent my entire life here. I will miss my family and friends a great deal. I’m nervous about the move… it’s an astonishingly big change and a giant step. I hope it’s a step in the right direction.

Jake gets here Friday at around noon. We will then drive to Niagara Falls, where we’ll meet my former boss Chris for lunch. It’ll be great to see him; Chris was one of my favorite parts of my job at Niagara University. He taught me a great deal about being a supervisor, and was a good friend on top of that.? Thankfully he has remained a good friend. After our lunch, Jake and I will go to Niagara Falls. He has never been… and I may just be the best tour guide ever considering I lived there for two years. We’ll go around the island on the American side and then we’ll walk across the bridge to Canada. After a nice day out there we’ll drive back to Alfred, get some rest, and then get up early Saturday morning to drive to North Carolina.

I keep taking big breaths… there is so much coming down the pike and it’s a frightening time. I just need to get through this time, because I know that after it will be the best time of my life.